Mom was right...

...when she used to say "this is going to hurt me a lot more than it hurts you". Of course being little I SOOO did not believe her. Now, as a mother myself, I know how true that statement is. Tonight we had some friends over to eat and they stayed passed Dotty's bedtime (they have little girls around Dot's age and she was having a blast playing with them). After everyone left Dotty had such a meltdown and we could not get her to calm down, stop crying, take her bottle and go to sleep. Tony finally said we should just lay her down in her crib and let her cry herself to sleep. I have only done that once before and that was when we were having a bad storm and I was worried about Tony (who was having a district golf tournament right in the middle of where a tornado was headed) and I was trying to check the weather, talk to him, and I just had to put Dotty in her crib and let her cry herself to sleep. That time it was a must and I was so worried about Tony I was not hurting as bad listening to Dot cry. But tonight was awful. I had to go take a shower so I could not hear her cry. Tony stayed in the living room and when I got out I asked how long she cried...he guessed about 5 minutes but I don't know how he could stand it. It was breaking my heart. Even after I went in to check on her asleep (and she was not even doing that whimpering kind of sleep that babies do after they have cried really hard) I still wanted to pick her up and hold her and rock her and kiss her sweet cheeks. I just hate to see her cry REAL tears...especially when I can't really help her.

I don't know what I will do the first time I really have to discipline her. Her "terrible twos" and "teen" years are going to be tough on all of us I have a feeling. My heart still feels like it is hurting and she has been asleep for over 30 minutes now. I just might cry myself to sleep too.

This "Mom Thing" can be hard on a girl.